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i MET THE ROCK [16 Oct 2005|05:07pm] GO TO MY MYSPACE.... ALSO MET JASON TAYLOR of the Miami DOlphins and got pics with both WHAT A SICK WEEKEND OVERALL... 3 DAYS OF PARTYING ... MOVIE PREMIERS, SEMINOLE HARD ROCK, NOCTURNAL.... HOT WOMEN........ if there is one thing about Miami is that there is always something to do and hot people to hang with 1*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

i just want to talk to someone . ughhhhhhhh [04 Oct 2005|11:17pm] ever have one of those days where u just want to talk to someone so badly yet no one is online to talk to :( thats how i feel today im so bored and feel like shit just want to talk to anyone.... in related news why the fuck do girls sign out without saying bye after u talk to them for a good 30 min... it annoys the shit out of me ............ esp one ur trying to meet and take out so she can have a good time whatever..... i swear is life this fuckin complicated. its just social interaction people dammit 2*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

Hurricane Katrina fucked us up [26 Aug 2005|08:57pm] just got power back after 24 fuckin hrs. katrina fucked us up bad. kendall was nailed with the southern eye wall of this bitch and we got 18-20 inches of rain and sustained hurricane force winds for several hrs. it was a mess downed lines trees all over it depressing. went to movies just to be somewhere with FUCKIN A/C AND SAW 40 YR OLD VIRGIN. DIDNT WANT TO SEE IT FOR OBVIOUS REASONS CUZ ITS SOMETHING I JUST CANT LAUGH ABOUT.... SAW IT IT WAS CUTE. THE STORY OF MY LIFE IN 13 YRS... FUCKKK KILL ME....... TOMORROW IM GETTING SO DRUNK AND PARTYIN MY MUTHA FUCKIN ASS OFF... FUCK YOU KATRINA FUCK YOU TO HELL U STUPID BITCH CUNT......... 2*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

dr's are sooooo dumb [24 Aug 2005|07:47pm] so yeah i go to my dr and i have yet another sinus infection but what he tells me that makes me turn white is i have a deviated septum that will require surgery to fix lovellly here is what my friend wrote to me about her surgery "Anyway, I never had sinus infection problems but I had trouble breathing thru both nostrils (hence why I had not only septioplasty, but turbinate surgery as well). Originally I could only breath perhaps the size of a pinhole out of one nostril and probably 50% out of the other. Now I think i'd say I am 90% on one nostril and 50-60% on the other. It wasn't a perfect fix for me, but I am damn glad I did it. It made a helluva difference. Now I can breathe without keeping my mouth open all the time. And its a helluva lot better now when I get a cold...'cause when I would get congested before, I couldn't breathe at all thru my mouth. Now I still can. I don't know if it varies per case/per person, but the surgery for me was 23-hour outpatient...or however they word it. It's still technically outpatient but I was at the hospital for 23 hours. I stayed overnight. Some docs differ on how they leave you after the surgery. My doc packed my nose with gauze. Although my friend that had septioplasty & a nose job done up in Conneticut had no packing at all. Obviously there is swelling, and also because I had the gauze shoved up in my nose, it was even bigger, lol. With your nose being packed like that you get light and sound sensitive. Which really sucks. But I had the gauze removed, I believe, 3 days later. I think I missed work that entire week. And spent 2 weeks without being able to do any heavy lifting, etc. I had to go back to the doctor at least 3 separate times after the surgery for him to check on how I was healing...for him to remove the gauze that one time, and to clear my nose of all the snot & shit that was in there because I wasn't supposed to blow my nose for 2 weeks. Sounds disgusting, and boy it must have been that first time he sucked out my snot. But I won't go into those details and details of removing the gauze right now with you. Some of those details may change your mind about the whole thing, lol. Anyway, I was given morphine after surgery, demarol shots in the ass during my stay at the hospital, and Vicodin to help with the pain at home. Not to say that that's exactly how it will be for you. You may have different stuff they give you since we probably have different allergies to things, etc. To show you what they do I would have to show you in person. To illustrate it for you. But they pretty much break your septum...the part of your nose that separates the nostrils from each other...and mold it to be straight (or straighter). I can't think if I have missed anything. If I did, feel free to ask." yeah so this sucks...... lol whatever as long as it helps me breathe better im down. gonan go to a specialist soon.... :( tRanCed.

Why speak when im not even heard.........or seen........ [11 Aug 2005|10:25pm] tired of bitchin . sayin life sucks and that it cant get any lonelier. guess i could be living in the streets its all thats left. blah blah fuckin blah blah .... cant wait for weekend to get fucked up hard irish car bomb i dont care seriously 1/3 of a pint of draft Guinness A shot of equal parts Irish Whiskey and Bailey's Irish Creme Drop shot glass in pint, jager-bomb style. Drink till empty then i hope to be sober enuff to drive back. if not guess ill get a hotel room whatevr........ better to just shut up i guess. 2*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

Ive hit the big time........ im a real journalist!!!! whooooo hoooooooo [29 Jul 2005|10:18pm] today i was callled up by cooljunkie to go to a special event the inaugration of the miami/downtown entertainment district promenande i went to a press conference where members of the city commission and mayor manny diaz spoke about the rebuilding of miami. i was seated with the press next to hearald reporters with their pen and pads in hand as was i. and beside tv reporters and camera crews afterwards they had a ribbon cutting ceremony and we walked into all the clubs with the mayor we ended up at nocturnal where i met the owner (the real owner) the man with the cash. we had free champagne and i was hobnobbing with the owners of the clubs and politicians got a pic with the mayor and im gonna write my first political/club review (the real story behind how clubs work) i feel like a real journalist :) cant wait to see my pic with the mayor 1*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

Just a few words of my state of mind.... [17 Jul 2005|04:47pm] In my constant search for myself, my readings have taken me towards the Romantic era (france to be exact), and one quote caught my attention.. "There is only one happiness in life, in this life, to love and be loved." Happiness eludes me. It flows all around, its vibrant energy flows around me.... life continues on....the present quickly becomes the future, the past mere memory. In my search for happiness, the search for myself, I have fallen to the whims of societal pressures. Not out of weakness but out of submission. Submission to what is accepted as the "way to be." My life went through a drastic change 4 yrs ago. I went from the timid and shy bookworm whose goal in life was to be a lawyer. Oh Daniel the lawyer, oh how my life was set in stone. I forsaw myself living in a beautiful condo on Miami Beach, perhaps a bachelor but preferabbly with my loved one. My life would have been devoted to the "aid of others." As a Doctor of Jurisprudence my goal was to exemplify my innate abilities to argue, both verbally and written for the sole purpose of seeing others smile... and yes make a few bucks on the side (ahhhhhh capitalism ... you cant escape it) Today I am a broken man.. only a mere shell of what i once was.. my drive has remained the same but it has become enraptured around Miami nightlife. I write from the heart.... I write because its all I know how to do.... and how I express myself best... I have met a lot of people.. I used to think i wanted to be like them.... To have a girlfriend, to be happy. to party and party and escape reality..... What have i accomplished in the last 4 yrs...... Nothing...... I am the "disco legend" according to Alan T (a disco legend in his own right as he is a diva vocalist and friend of Danny Tengalia the NY HOUSE LEGEND). He sees my passion burning inside. but he doesnt see nor does anyone else the misery inside. I look around at the Miami crowd the fakeness of it sickens me. Beautiful women, showcasing their flesh for the world to see. Girls on drugs... guys who take advantage of girls on drugs.... They fuck.... they do coke together..... they get wasted together..... RINSE,LATHER AND REPEAT... its a vicious cycle. a few have been in the scene for more then 15 yrs. none married. all searching for themselves... as am I What do I want in life........ I WANT WHAT EVERYONE WANTS... HAPPINESS...... my happiness comes in the form of being able for the first time in my life to share myself with a woman.... EMOTIONALLY, SPIRTUALLY, AND PHYSICALLY.... I am proud of who i am .... I am unique.... the 27 yr old virgin who is changing his aesthetic look to make himself feel better? Why he does not know.... its a "high" without the drugs I guess. Today, I went to the movies .... yeah you guessed it...ALONE I saw Wedding Crashers. Unlike most, I thought the movie was not a comedy but rather a tragedy... Yes I laughed and i higly reccomend it to all. it had heart behind it These guys were mid age perhaps 35 or so who just crashed wedddings looking to score... with hot girls.... yes the movie is cliched... they both fall in love by the end with girls they met at a wedding... and they both live happily ever after.... sigh...... they like myself were lost.... they crashed weddings.... i crash clubs........ I give of myself way too much..... I place my emotions upon my sleave for the whole world to see... criticism and hatred follow...... My goal in life is to treat that special girl so incredible. to the best of my ability. I know I am not the perfect man... I'm thin, I got hair in places that are not really sexy (LOL), but what I do have is my head on straight and my heart in the right place. I love, Love..... Where will i be a year from now... Surely not where I am now.... I have met so many wonderful people, and so many bad people in my yrs in the scene. but through it all I have stayed true to myself..... I realize I have strayed from that path, and I am getting myself back on the path... but this time I shall not travel alone..... but within the arms of another.....my fingers enrapt around her's.... my heart in her hand...expressing alll the pent up love that i have within and finally expressing it in the right manner. But first I have to love myself..... that though will be difficult... Who am I? Who am I? I feel I have become a mere shadow of the person I once was... as the yrs progress and life remains ever the same.... I cry not for the present.. but rather the future..... I am a "beaten man" beaten not by life... but rather myself...... Its time to take the path to my salvation.. only then will i find what I am looking for..... 1*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

WELL now stage 2 is done....... [13 Jul 2005|08:59pm] first the goatee now an earring.... pierced my ear today. im sure bossman wont approve but hes shit out of luck it has to be on for 6 weeks before i can take it off..... ....... i hate that i have to go thru this drastic change but u know what...... clean cut and preppy nice guy wasnt workin so i have to do what i ahve to do to get where i want to be..... nuff said........ 1*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

Hatin life right now [12 Jul 2005|11:38am] too many reasons to list.. why bother and use the last energy i have left... tRanCed.

what i wanted to do for nadia......... [10 Jul 2005|10:01pm] friday when the weather was bad thanks to hurricane dennis i called up james stratus at chesterfield on wed and tried to setup an goin away party for nadia though everything got all fucked up cuz of the weather :( i was planning on getting her a cake and having james decorate the booth with stuff ah well i tried :( 1*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

True Friendship knows no distance... [10 Jul 2005|09:23pm] Today I went to help Nadia and see her off on her trek cross country back to UTAH. Over the past year Nadia has become one of my best friends. Its no surprise I invited her as my date to our office xmas party. at 23 yrs young im amazed that she goes alone cross country nonstop. albeit she is a lot different then most people i know (and thats good thing- shes a tough cookie but inside i know she has a heart of gold. Im def gonna miss u nadia. Miami is just such a difficult town to meet people. our going out to the beach, getting me to go to my first japanese restaurant... and all ur pep talks have meant a lot i think my asss will be getting on my first plane to utah to vist u and ur bf for sure. should be fun. 4 hrs from vegas. u know were gonna cause damage. cant wait to see u again in utah and party in the ur crazy desert rave parties or house parties, with "beautifica" LOL shit ill let u dress me up even lol and NO WE wont post that on cp lol it was great seeing u today yet sad at the same time. moving ur stuff i realized by tomrorow ur long gone. will i be able to find a friend such as u to fill that void? hell there is def only one nadia. ur def one cool chica. ive def learned a lot from u. ive learned that one has to be tough in certain situations and dont let life overwhelm u. ive learned that despite all else one must remain true to themselves and never change. indivuduality and what makes us who we are is what matters. anytime u visit miami my home is def open to u .... anytime ..... to one bad ass chick hope to see u again real soon ps (give ur little gatico a rub on the belly for me) ur friend always Bling ;) tRanCed.

4th of july weekend is here [01 Jul 2005|09:19am] woke up with a headache again but f it im partying with 2 weeks off im ready friday -Nocturnal (fish go deep and Neil aline and then afterhours with roland) saturday -Johnny Fiasco @ Blue (cant wait i saw johnny during wmc on the shipwrecked boat cruise he is the shit plain and simple) then afterwards im going to space to ck out zabiela if he is playin a patio set sunday-either sleep or gryphon for DHM monday-nikki beach for the 17 hr madness with fireworks and the legend Danny Tenaglia and Steve lawler (god i hope lawler doest suck 3x straight) if im still alive after this weekend ull know cuz ill post about it yeah ill be possibly writing 3 reviews for cj this weekend .. gawddd ill be writing all week. sat for sure and mon for sure fri it depends if the crowd is big and music is good. oyyyyyyyy the price of fame lol tRanCed.

I have a fan club :) [20 Jun 2005|10:35am] met a young woman named kimberly at gryphon on saturday nite . she came up to me and commented that her and her buddies in law school read my reviews and love my writings we talked awhile about my writings and about law school and my failed attempt at making it at UM law. its cool to know that i have a fan club but yet i am missing something..... perhaps its best to not dwell on the negatives but just enjoy the moment and jus"seize the day " my drinking is getting worse. david orth the creator of a local cable dance music show and big time guy in club scene got me two shots of patron double for what i do for this scene he said thru my words. im such an alki oy vey :( tRanCed.

my connections at Nocturnal are insane !!! [14 Jun 2005|08:33am] another weekend same ol same ol. my connections at nocturnal are ridiculous. took my best friend paola and the girl i was infatuated with in college to the venue. got there at 10 they opened at 1130 basically we walk right in with greg (dj stryke) and head up to the patio to hear some ani phearce rock set. ) club wasnt open yet at all everyone setting up we were alredy getting drinks free served to us. that is VIP BABY!!! no one there we were just chillin hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee thanks to dade, greg, and everyone at nocturnal its pickin up slowly nocturnal in a few months will be the shit. just watch tRanCed.

The Whisper [09 Jun 2005|09:20am] It first caught my attention as a mere echo. Striding alongside a moonlit beach strewn with couples in love,its loving message warming the chilly night air. Amidst couples embraced in a darkened theater the whisper returned.. powerful, exotic.... mesmerizing.... And finally the whisper reappeared whenever we speak. Why, I questioned myself have I never heard these whispers? The sweet intonations from one lover to the next? I realized..... It is because I had never been in love.. Until You. My senses have become aroused. As if a newborn babe I see beauty for the first time. The beauty of a lone flower alongside a dirt road...of a couple gently grasping each other's hands.......of a first kiss.... The sounds of the dance of the honeybee informing its hive of the honey its found...of a lovers sigh...of lovemaking... The taste of honey for the first time, my lovers lips... ecstacy. No longer an echo, the whispers of others have become pronouced.. I wait for the day that we can create our own whispers, one that others falling in love for the first time can listen in on and smile knowing that they too have discovered the unimaginable! true love!!! 2*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

why bother [07 Jun 2005|01:44pm] barely sleep been considering doin hardcore drugs...... im at the verge of doin it nothing holding me back....... i have nothing 5*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

so this weekend was umm fun lol [06 Jun 2005|12:50pm] went to blue to hear jask (best set of the year for me tied with halo the friday before conference. so at blue i have a heineken and a shot that was really blue no clue i was handed it by the dj then afterwards kelly kel invites me to her hotel room for more drinks. we proceed to drink a lot...... end up passin out in a bed with her and her friend. heh cuhh raee zee first time ive ever slept with a girl in a bed. it was great....... nothing happened of course. next week crashin at her place in palm beach after i finally visit delux ......... 4 days away till andy caldwell at delux and then dimtri from paris at nocturnal (or if i love andy that much ill go to blue sat to hear him 2 days in a row) tRanCed.

got into a car accident...... again.................. [02 Jun 2005|04:18pm] -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ok so im goin to lunch in my new car mind u.... and im sitting stilll waiting to turn left. when this moron comes out of taco hell in one of those '91 buick's(tanks) makin a left sideswipes my car and then runs........ wtffffffffffff so now my car is in the shop. not much damage at all. but no car till latest tues hopefully i can make chesterfield amika prolly not sat got a car for blue sasha=out for me now...... ridiculous i lose half a day work have to pay a damn deductible and some jackass runs. prolly because he doesnt even have insurance i swear to you . i give up sometimes why bother. 2*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

To nadia........ [31 May 2005|07:50pm] this past monday was very nice. its been a long time since i have been able to relax such as that.YOur a really fun girl to hang with and I enjoyed every minute. Just knowing u might move back to UTAH makes me sad but hey u have to do what u have to do. one thing is for certain ill always be your friend.......... its tough to forge lifelong friendships in Miami especially.. the hustle and bustle of everyday life is just overwhelming ........... but despite all obstacles if a frienship is meant to be.... people are able to put aside their plans and make time for each other... as we did.. i had a blast hanging with you and would love to do it again soon.. oh i asked for friday the 10th off they gave it to me..... i could always change it to tues so we can do backdoor bamby.... ill ask tomorrow :) 1*BuRnin with DeSire * * tRanCed.

well my birthday was this weekend [31 May 2005|07:38pm] another yr older..... sigh......... it was not the best birthday really. didnt really do anyting special went to blue to hear john howard during the hip hop festival on sobe it was nuts. i was the only white guy on sobe lol best part of my birthday was hanging with nadia.. love u honey thanks for hanging with me the day after... my first time to the actual beach in over a yr and first time having japanese food ..... def lookin foward to hangin out again ur neighbors are nuts.......... besides that everything else is boring.... tRanCed.

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